My story is my own, but similar to that of many others. I've never been skinny, or small, or dainty. Ever since I was a year old, I've been chubby. Which is so strange considering the rest of my family has always been tall and skinny.
I was always really active, participating in rec sports and high school activities. I played volleyball, softball and even basketball for a while (I think I gave that one up in 8th grade). I was always riding my bike around the neighborhood, going on walks with friends and just goofing off.
In middle school I was at what I would like to think was a normal weight, but I had a lot of people telling me I was heavy. I got picked on and was teased for a lot of things, but mainly for my weight. Unfortunately, not knowing how to deal with the feelings I had from being teased turned into emotional eating, a habit I kept up for a good 15 years or so.
When I was a senior in college, I was at my highest weight. I brought all of that weight with me when I moved to Richmond in 2006. I started my first real job and decided it was time to get in shape, so I joined Gold's Gym in December 2006 and got a personal trainer. I weighed in a 223lbs. I know I was heavier than that before I joined the gym, which is why I'm pretty sure my highest weight was somewhere around 230lbs. I worked with the trainer and tried to focus on a healthier diet, and did end up losing weight. It took a lot of time, but eventually I got down to around 206lbs. I remember that number well because I was stuck there for a long time.
On June 26, 2009, Robert proposed. This meant wedding dress! I went and met with a doctor, since I was once again stuck at a weight - 196lbs. I was eating about 1600-1700 calories per day, exercising and not getting anywhere. He prescribed me with Phentermine. I was on this for a year. The recommended time to be on this medicine is 6 weeks. I didn't know this until my friend Stephanie, a pharmacist, told me to stop taking it immediately, that people literally drop dead from heart attacks after taking that medicine. Needless to say I did stop.
After the Phentermine and lots of monitoring what I ate and exercising a ton, I was down to my smallest weight just in time for our big day, 171lbs! I had never stepped on a scale and seen that number, so I was thrilled. We had a wonderful wedding, I felt great and I was so happy!
We went on our honeymoon to Kauai, had a fabulous time there, and then came home to be newly weds.
In a little over one year, I had gained nearly 20lbs. Talk about a bummer.
A short while ago, I met with a nutritionist at Commonwealth Sports Medicine in Richmond. I recounted my ups and downs and fessed up about the Phentermine, and told her I was sick of carrying around extra weight and never being able to figure out what to do about it. I felt lost and annoyed and totally unhappy.
Liz told me that a "guarded carbs" i.e. low carb, high protein, was the way to go and guaranteed me that it would work. She recommended I buy the book "The Schwarzbien Principle" and read it. It has a lot of helpful advice and information regarding high proten, low carb and why it is beneficial and lots of medical terminology.
So that leaves me here. I'm in a place where I've seen changes and I'm ready for more. I am motivated to be the healthiest I can be and I have a ton of inspirational friends around me who are crazy supportive and helpful. My goal is lose weight, but mainly to be healthy. I want to find recipes for food that taste like they are full of bad stuff, but really are healthy and fit a balanced diet and are just plain good! I don't want to be on a 'diet' - people start a diet, which means ultimately they end it. I don't want to start anything - I want to live a healthy lifestyle and be fit and comfortable and happy. I don't want to feel held back or feel as if I can't have a cookie if I want a cookie, but I have to learn to be strong, learn limits, and know that one extra glass of wine or a cupcake won't destroy all of my efforts. Life is about happiness and fun and I want to keep it that way!
This is my journey for healthy happiness.